12 March 2011

Older and Wiser

It has been suggested in several individual reviews of Between Expectations that the book might be better, my narrative (and my role of narrator) more sympathetic, had I written it ten years from now, or maybe even twenty. I would have had a more mellow and less jarring quality to my observations had I aged them or let them breathe like a left bank Bordeaux.

Maybe I'll write that book as well. I hope that I get to.

But reading the pages of my own book, one I wrote only a few years ago and continued to edit until the middle of last year, it is like reading about things that happened to a stranger. I am already a wholly different person. I have already left that small, frightened intern far, far behind.

So I hope you'll forgive me for having written this book, one that takes place at the beginning and not the end of my learning, and appreciate that it contains much that I would have lost had I waited, had I tried first to make sense of each experience instead of capturing the confusion and uncertainty that permeated those years.

So stay tuned. When I become a sage and a savant, I'll let you know. Until then, I'll continue to do the best that I can.

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